my father just passed away on thurs, 17/04/08, time; 1923. due to PNEUMONIA. he was an ex-smoker. he stopped smoking 2 years ago. he cant sleep well. he cant even lie
down. so he sleeps while sitting down. he cant breathe properly. he has asthma. so, he went for a check up in alexandra hospital last week. we found out that his lungs has expanded after going thru x-ray. he was warded. still, he cant sleep well. so the doctor gave him sleeping pill. and a machine mas attached to him to help him breathe. but he nvr woke up after that. then he was transferred to MICU. slowly, his organs stopped functioning. kidney failure and had to give dialysis. and then he's coma. and slowly, his brain stopped functioning. from there, there was no point of keeping him. so the doctor topped his medication and told us that he has only a few hours to live. then, he passed away. :'(

stupid doctor! my father shouldnt have went for a check up if he knew that he was gonna die. stupid! but, what to do, it was his destiny.

i feel the lost. losing my father is like losing adidas stuffs. there wont be any more 30% off for adidas items. there wont be any free adidas stuffs anymore. its just so sad that my father had to leave.thinking of him, make me thinks of the house bills and all. its just too stressful. its not that i dont love him. i do. its just that i dont love him as much i as i love my mom. you know, at first, its hard for me to forgive him after all he'd done to me when i was at the hospital. after all the beating up when i was young, almost threw hot oil on me, smacking me real hard with his golf-stick. throwing chairs at me. it was really hard. but then again, i realise i do love him knowing that he's goin away. surprisingly, i cried when he took his last breath.

so, i went out on saturday night. even thou im not supposed to for 7 days. i went karaoke with my bother, syafiq. it was fun. my first time karaoke-ing. setan abg aku nie... hurhur. and im not even supposed to like switch on the computer and tv. but i did. aku setan... lol! went out to causeway point with fie and ayeen to watch movie. forbidden kingdom. it was cool. tapi aku setan. haha.

AFIQ hot! *drools*. :) lol. he came to my house. hhahahahah. really wished he wasnt straight. he talked to me. sadly, he didnt salam me.

what else should i write eh?... ouh... i bought new sluar dalam. lol. tk perlu bilang eh!...

ouh yar... i soo need a job right now. i the hell am i supposed to live without money?.

let me think what else i should write..(after 15 mins of thinking eh) i think thats all. bye. i cant think. was just thinking of afiq... :)

*massytura linked! :)
*faizalcool linked! :)
*amirah linked! :)
*atiqah linked! :)
*andreas finally linked! :)

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